I just so damn hard.........

I want to be in that corridor again,

I want to play hide n seek again,

I want to go to go the playground in peak summers

and play as long as I wish ,either I loose or even if I win the game,

I just so damn hard want to be that sweet little girl again,

I want all innocent questions to be asked like who ate my lunch or ohh why my Barbie is crying in pain??

I want to go on the same terrace and be the little extra batsman  of my bro’s team and put all efforts just to let it go in vain,

I want to have those cute parties again,

I want myself to be in the pink frock and get fully drenched in rain,

I want to be demanding just to the level where I can ask for  a new pencil a or a cake

I want my homeworks and that diary back with me so no one can ever take again,

The Miss India cycle,I miss you,Ohh how many times did I hit you,

God!! so unrealistic can I be……Can’t help that’s just me!!

To have all the dance practice and be in the main,

Ohh I just so damn hard want to be that sweet little girl again,

Guests can be the bests with some ifs and buts....

“Athiti Devon bhava” the Sanskrit phrase  needs a lot more of explanation because I cannot comprehend it ,not because I know little Sanskrit, but because I want some thoughtful emphasis on the numbers,categories and duration of the guests as well.One cannot handle a dozen of guests with the same tempo in scorching summers as one can do when the number restricts to 2 or 3.When we are talking about guests  then we need to be ready for all the categories.There may be some who  won’t really mind asking for their favourite dish from their invisible mind written menu cards,some others might  get so comfortable that they may  wishfully misunderstand your home as  a real sweet home.I mean how offensive it would be to live in a house which is near one of the stations,never really  could hit my mind in such a way,before.Well anyone reading the blog must have had understood by now the fact, that I am not happy and the straight away simple reason is that I am sick of too much of “guesting”.

It is not that I like to live an unsocial recluse life,I appreciate being in touch with everyone,I like to meet people and and I do believe in giving them warm welcome but what if someone you know little are going to stay (not just as a meeting)…Yes they mean it STAY. Specially when they are not even one of your relatives,then physically and mentally you start retreating yourself from the word “GUEST” even more.C’mon I need my own space at my own house.I can’t see my cozy master bedroom getting occupied by someone whom I least know,I cant push all my stuffs into drawers and wait for them to go.(yes I am possessive for my belongings).I need to access Internet which I won’t be able to, for the next few days,my Friends series will too go on a break(Because we live in a house, not hotel that I can find place for every ABC thing I want to do).Oh so many sacrifices…God have I become so pathetically nonadjustable??and am I my parents’ daughter who are so very excited to see them after long long years?? Waiting desperately for my space back and singing to the tunes of “Atithi tum kab jaoge”…here, I sign off…L

Akshya

Newspapers???

I have vacations and reading newspaper is a good habit(as thay say it :)).So yes I am a bit more informed about my surrounding these days .From past few days the latest news which flushed out on the newspaper pages were all  about the 34 years of end of Left’s reign  in east and Mamata ddi’s splendid win,ofcourse accompanying Jayalalitha or amma’s win in south, which obviously followed the editor’s and media person’s predictions and critics for many days on the grand events as the aftermaths.(As if the Bangloreans or Mumbaites or any outsider has got  to do anything with how well  these two madams are going to perform on the big stage or how much Bengal or Tamil Nadu are going to gain or loose).Well and yes ofcourse then the petrol price hike news(which has become such a routine work nowadays  that it’s hard to call it a news now!! ).Ahha  see I told I am reading :)

Though with internet gaining momentum many of us prefers to have a look on the headlines on wwws or even the job lookers do not need to rely on rozgar pages of newspapers,  but still newspapers have its utmost significance maintained till today in our daily life. Even though we get the same news being repeated hundresds of times on TV channels ,still the morning freshness with a cup of tea can only be felt completely when you get your hands on newspaper(for many of us!!).

I really get amused at times on how important an engagement it becomes, for many people at many places.Let it be offices,railway stations or even airports,one can easily find a good 60% of the public engrossed into newspapers atleast when  the clock shows a time between 6am to 10 am.

        Once while travelling from Bhubaneswar to Bangalore which takes almost 

30 hours, I found a co-passenger,an uncle  ,who was also travelling alone.To my surprise rather shock, he spent atleast 15 hours of the journey reading newspaper where at the same position I was awfully frustrated with the boring journey and was continuously switching between movies and magazines. Though I can understand the binding force a  novel provides with its sequencential flow but how can a newspaper create the same magic??(Yes it can be a good question for many newspaper readers like me :))

Anyways what I can think of now can only be of  what a different person I could have been with an intellectual interest in newspapers.I would have known all the scandal’s histories,I would have been able to know better about the share markets or the Indian dramatical politics ,I would have had an unbeatable vocabulary power or rather in a nutshell I would have been a miniature form of encyclopedia .But after thourough self analysis I know now, no matter how hard I give it a try  still I am going to stuck myself between 5 to 6 articles :)

Tip:-Reading headlines is a great job as well..Join wih me :)

Cheers!!

Akshya

I am thinking...

Dear blog,

Why do I write so seldom??

1.I don’t have time- The bleakest excuse.

2.I don’t like writing blogs- Hell!! then why would have I started it on the first place??

3.I don’t find relevant topics- Liar Liar you don’t need to find topics ,if you have that tempo then it comes to you by all odds.

4.I am a Facebook freak –Used to happen long time  back,(touch wood )I am normal these days.

5.I have become more professional-Yeah I do spend lots of time these days finding & evaluating better options for me but did I ever deny that I love blogs.

6.I like reading blogs more- Here my thinking machine hits a ‘eureka’ key.Yeah may be I like reading more about people,their views or some national issue blogs or just anything .So now when I know the reason I will try to maintain may be not an equal balance but atleast a less imbalance between the two J.

Thik hi hai

Recently I was talking to one of my childhood friend who has got all the typical girly traits, who knows all about latest fashion stuffs and who is quite popular among the male counterparts  of her college.It’s always fun talking to her as I get to know the latest  updates of all other school friends(ya she is a hell lot of newsy) …What I noticed lately after talking to her for some 90 mins was that for all my decent and reasonable queries which I could have asked her she had this answer called “thik hi hai” or “may be lets see”…C’mon may be because of our gabby chats into which I was so engrossed ,that I didn’t even pay any heed to her maybes and so I missed the chance to fire her back and use our special argot…Anyways,just after this chatting session one of my friend in hostel came to my room to ask me about her new boyfriend.. I just thought God how can one  be so stupid,dumb and foolish all at the same time to ask me such a question..Such a poor fish she is who wants to be with a guy who has nothing special in him in fact I would rate him as the most disgusting guy of the college..But sshhhh!!! I couldn’t have uttered all this or else she would have kicked me hard…So the most decent,appropriate and reflexive answer which came out all of a sudden from me was…”wo thik hi hai may be lets see you will be happy together”…Bingo she was so very pleased with my answer(May be she hadn’t even expected this much of positivism for him).

Now of course I had to think deep of why at times all the forthrightness of a person goes mute and he or she cannot stand bold on her “Yeses and Nos” Of course there can be hundreds of reasons..In my case I didn’t want to hurt my friend(and also didn’t want to get hurt by her).. In fact this has to be the reason in most scenarios since you cannot express your incisive views to just any other XYZ..One needs to be a diplomat to survive in their surrounding..And so we need to tamper the Darwin’s theory of “survival of the fittest” every now and then because at times we just pretend so very hard to show how fit we are for our surrounding J.

Of course we all are not diplomats..Some of us are innocents and confused with the potpourri of options we have today..For example ask my mom her favourite daily soap and she would end up recalling all the serials she watches….She would say it sweetly “sab to thik hi hain”(she cannot decide which ‘K’ serial is the best..Ohh really how can it be)..Ask my sister to buy a dress she won’t  leave you without taking a round of every single shop of the city.(and I have been the victim many a times J)....Coz every dress seems just ok to her not at all good or bad and she got to get the bestest dress when she is paying the money …clean funda!!

Now the more I am analyzing  this  “thik hi hai” phrase  the more frequently I am using it..So I do need to get rid of this syndrome..Trying my best and hopefully I will recover till I write the next blog..                                         

 Cheers!!

Akshya

It's all about "MY"

This is my first blog and I want to write something that I can keep as an asset and have a view whenever I feel the need ,for the rest of my life.

Most of us (Of course the lucky ones) get almost 75-80 yrs of lifespan.Now here we are endowed with many many types of emotions of love,hatred,jealousy,desire,disgust,anger…. We as an individual try to manage all of these emotions in the most efficient way we can ,to move ahead for an overall average happy and comfortable life.Things come, people come and incidents occur and we keep on fighting severely every time for the sake of our inner smile.But then among all these numerous emotions my personal view ranks "love" to be at the topmost position in my list not only for me, but for a majority of mass in general.This love is constitutional in all of us for our family,our parents and near n dear friends.We don’t ever need to put any extra ingredient to garnish the impeccable emotion(in normal cases)..But what if we bury ourselves too much in the world of emotions only???

Here comes the trouble..Yes we loose our self,our identity,our motive,our life.And we adjust ourselves to the life which has no "my" to it.We remain busy fulfilling those big or even little desires and expectations of our loved ones which even might not be something of much concern to them.And mostly we get so used to of this life that we don’t even feel any pain in ruining our  "my".Many a times we even become frustrated if we could not achieve the thing desired by our people.We start demoralising ourselves and make a hell out of our life.It happens with most of us.For each n every little action we start analyzing it from their point of view.Now that’s not called life that’s called a responsibility with an overwhelming burden.It’s actually a habit and such people are always dependent and leave themselves hanging between choices for the whole life.I don’t find any personal story or specific person but I know it’s common very common among all of us and we all must have had experienced it at some point of our life.

Life is to live,cherish,perform and achieve.Our happiness should have a special place,in fact we need to be special for ourselves.Now we of course need not hurt the people we belong to, but trust me if they hold such important place and are so special ,then they won’t ever feel distress in our happiness.No one can ever deny how good is the feeling of  ‘doing something for someone’….But it can’t be a habit else the world will become hell and very impractical to live in.Bringing out our self ,our thoughts ,our wishes ,our ideas of fun, our favourites,our “my” (of course with proper respect to others’ emotions)should be the real FUNDA!!